inon,uoy evol i

so i here by , once again..life in despair.. or perhaps..i'm just heartbroken..

i'm not one bit attractive..so i'm totally right..
sorry if im not your dream guy..
sorry if im too bad for all this..
sorry if im controlling you all these while..
sorry if i had made your life a piece of boredome..
sorry if i made you fall for me..

i think i just know the reason why..
sorry if im making you embarrase outside walking with me..

BUT

thank you for showing me what is right and wrong..
thank you for giving me what i want..
thank you for being there with me all these while..
thank you for giving me chance to be with you..
thank you for all the food..
thank you for opening your heart for me..
thank you for showing me what is love..

sigh..i'm living in the world of mirror..

i'm just afraid to lose you right now..or in the future..
but i want things to go better..
help me noni?
you have ur own diary which will state every single things, and feeling that you felt towards me..sincerely or not..i wouldnt know..

i'll just have to be patience..i'll just have to take good care of you..
i wish i'll be just like "them" who you use to have a crush on.
i wish you will sincerely cherish me for who i am..
i still remember the first day we went out and you said about something which you like to do in the past with your past lover..
but ..i just realise, not even with me..
sigh.. you are the only person in this world, whom i called, love..

well..i end my speech for now..and i will not be updating blog after this..i will.but not always..

i'll be on hiatus, searching for something..something..perhaps..an answer for the question?

and to you guys who is trying their best, don't even try to take this chance ,or even advantage..i'll wipe your ass off if you guys do..i know what you guys are up to..thanks..


goodnight
lots of love, to noni..
help me noni..
help me, death..
help me, love..