The Scientist.

I just wanna live my life to the fullest for now..
It's been a hard one ever since some incident happen..and yea.
The one which is the BIG one..
i wish i could have the remote to travel back time to improve what humans have been doing.. i wish that wouldn't happen.but it happened..and if you realise, its not getting to the normal state..
who to blame?
who hold the guilt?
Are we still fighting for ego?
Is this sacrifices?
or Is this just a mind trick..?

Im not one bit attractive.. yes..i really am..not like you guys with such great flaws. is that where the problem came?Who's the judge? I don't know how to cure this feeling..
maybe if i can't , others can? or isit the other way round? Im not good at making decision.. i never did wanna make a decision..

i just don't wanna talk about all this .. but it seems like, if we ignore, till when we gonna endure ? isit better to talk things out nicely and stop the ego? or isit better to leave it be ? friends or foe.?
friends, totally.. but i used to read this article somewhere long time ago..
"Your bestfriend are your greatest enemy."
Which means. Your bestfriend will know you too well, they know your great powers, they know your weakness..and they will eventually bring you down if they need to someday..
Is this article a stupid thing to post?or isit true? Everyone is in pain recently.
What's the cause?do you guys know your own mistakes? or isit the "ego" still conquering you? It is never to late for everything in life.


but still, you are the greatest human being ever in my whole life Nur Hidahwati . someday you will know the true meaning of commitment,companionship,honesty,sacrifices and patience.make me be the first to know these from you before others do..




noni,i will never let you down..If you were about to fall, i'll be your cushion.And i'll make sure that i will fall before you..whereelse, there nothing much to say but , i love you..