Life is Death

Je t'aime, noni!

Death..
sounds so gothic, hell, and misery..
but nope..i've learnt something today..
even though death IS death. She is a kind hearted girl who was sent to earth to atleast, feel, see, share what humans are doing ..She was perfectly kind soul..but abit of corny or horny i shall say..
It's not a good thing.. I wish i could meet death , but, not with the horny corny attitude towards her friends , cause , its a guy's thingy. We all guys know ..There's always a reason to it and there's always a chance to ask why..

Human = colours = Rainbows

Red = Love,Hot,Angst,Hell,Blood
Blue = calm,water,
yellow = mellow, happy, dirty
Green = eco friendly, dirty, hingus(malay word) ,tree, lifely
purple = gay , whatever
pink = girlish, virgin?perhaps.

white&black , is not even a colour..
From what i know, white and black is a shade or something?i can't recall what i've learn in secondary school days..

White = purerity, clean, sincere,

black = gothic, hell, darkness, empty, lonely, emo, what ever..

well, i shall say..

Humans = colour = everyday life..


We can't expect life to be so happy,jump , full of surprises..
There will be ups and down of humans..
Sometimes i have ever wonder what is Life .
Some think they might know what is totally life's about.
But there will be something they do not know about life..
Some think they might know everything about love, even me myself i admit, i don't really know what is love, till i met her..Trust, Honesty, Sincere, Truthful, and sacrifices..

i've always wanted to have all these in me..But i'm sure im not 100% perfecto you know?
The partner too need to have these in them , so that relationship between them will be a pleasant one..:)
There's alot to learn, in every issue..Sometimes i really wanna talk about it, somehow it is important that we humans need to be serious at the right time..WE humans do not need to be serious all the time. It is true, seriousness could cause a minor problem become a serious major problem..We need to let loose our mind too..but sometimes, when we quarrell,other humans tend to come . Some take chances, while the others , sincerely helping out..

I've started to miss noni even more..God, i couldn't help myself from thinking of her..
I do really love her..I don't know what to do till this happen..It's a stupid thing to do for a guy ..but at the same point , she have her own mistake ..i don't want to say it out..
because, I love her...so much..i don't want her to feel guilty..i really just don't want to..i just want her to realise , and change ONLY if she thinks she needs to..
and me, i need to change too cause i already think that i should..It's for the benefit of us, yes noni. you..I wish you could listen to what i was gonna say, sincerely,all these while.. but i think you already knew what im trying to say..every thing that "he" say to you..its true..but i wish i could tell you myself, but seems like i don't have that chance to cause , whenever i'm trying to explain, you're like, in no mood to talk bout it..i'm too afraid to make you mad or feel lazy to think about all this..see?i still care bout you you know?but fortunetely, he did say everything about how i feel, before i have that chance to really express it to you , all by my own..I've always tried my best to tell..or even do..but i failed..i nvr did..sigh...life could be pretty absurd..but i'll nvr give up hope on you sweetheart, i will always , try my best , to make you happy, to make you smile, to make you laugh, to make you stare into my eyes again.. Just be with me and bear with my behaviour will you love?Trust me, we could go through all this once again..I'll promise to hold your hand tight every time i'm with you..

but im glad it was over..What is a relationship without all these am i right to say that?
The only thing left for me to say to my dearest sweetheart noni , there's nothing , including everything in the world could tear us apart.. nothing in the world could stop me from loving you..There's nothing in the world are like butterflies except for you..There's nothing in the world is as beautiful as i love you, my dearest noni,yes..you...i always had.and i will always do.<3<3<3 someday somehow, you'll realise how much you meant to me in this world..I would like to promise you on this sweetheart..


well it's 5.27 am in the morning and i think i should have some rest..goodnyt